a shout into the void

Aug. 17th, 2017 09:13 pm
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Today's been spectacularly unproductive, so I think I'll take a hint and go to bed early. Start pushing my wake up time forward, so eventually I can wake up at 5 without kicking and screaming.
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I took this video today, the video part isn't really important, it's the sound that's the reason I made this.

In the video there's basically just a view of the yard. If you squint you can probably see one of the squirrels on the white fence post, on the right. There is at least one other squirrel making noise here, but not seen.

I enhanced the sound, because it was a little soft straight from my ipod touch, so it may be a little loud, not sure. It's hard for me to judge sound volume because I'm hard of hearing.

So this is the sound of multiple squirrels "yelling" They are so loud and it's a weird screeching sound that is so weird if you're not used to it. Actually I still find it weird, and I've heard it a lot, several times today even.

The reason for their alarm this morning was a lurking cat (not seen in the video).

Last-minute panic

Aug. 17th, 2017 03:34 pm
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Tomorrow I'm heading up to spend the weekend with my niece (my brother having managed to plan a week in Wales at the same time so he and the dog won't be there), where we will be going to the Popup Wool Show. I did this last year and everything was fine; we had a great time, I spent far too much on yarn, and my neighbours checked in on the cats. This year Ross is doing the catsitting, which is even better as Lily loves Ross (she sits on his lap, which she won't even do for me), and even though Callie still mostly flees from the sight of him, she does that for everyone and last time she actually came out and sniffed him, and so everything should be fine.

So of course yesterday I had two massive panic attacks over leaving Lily which left me physically sick and nearly fainting, and all because Lily meowed at me once, which to my broken brain apparently translated into, "Lily is going to die this weekend". I'm at least calmer today because I've managed to cram some sense into myself, but I've still got a headache from making myself so worked up yesterday.

I hate the utter randomness that my panic attacks follow, because I can't do anything to counter or prepare for them. Ideas and intrusive thoughts just enter my head out of nowhere and make themselves at home, and the next thing I know I'm lying in bed thinking that the floor is going to collapse under me, or that someone is preparing to break into the house right this very moment - or that the cats will drop dead if I leave the house for more than an hour. And with the current state of my local authority's mental health services, the chances of me getting any sort of treatment (CBT or otherwise) before 2018 at the earliest are slim to none. So I mainly have to figure out coping methods on my own.

One method (technically two) is to distract myself with knitting or crochet. Right now I have a 10-stitch blanket on hand for random panic attacks (I'm making it with a ball of Sirdar Colorwheel because I think the long colour changes of the yarn will work well with the pattern, and it feels really soft), and last night I finally found with a pattern for a skein of yarn I got at last year's Popup Wool Show that's 55% Bluefaced Leicester Superwash and 45% silk - Persephone. I'm probably going to take this one with me this weekend as the pattern is incredibly easy to memorise (and the ball is smaller than the Colorwheel).
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Demands and Decisions
by Dialecticdreamer/Sarah Williams
part 2 of 6
word count (story only): 1096


:: Part of the Polychrome Heroics universe, the Mercedes story set, and the Road Trip arc, this is where Joshua's brain finally goes 'tilt,' but while there is tension, several good things develop as a result. ::


:: This story is sponsored by Callibr8, and she knows why! ::




“Can I be snarky about it?” Loudmouth asked, her eyes serious, but the corners of her mouth quivering in anticipation.

“Could you possibly not?” Joshua retorted in a shocked tone, rolling his eyes. He grinned, and his shoulders loosened visibly. “I actually meant that as a compliment. I deeply regret not bringing a note pad with me on this trip, but I honestly thought that it was going to be more about bonding with G than upending our entire lives. Anyway, A connects to B in my own head, but it would take too long to explain without at least as much snark as you seem to enjoy.”
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101 Update

Aug. 17th, 2017 12:07 am
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Progress This week:

Prepare and teach a class on Judaism in period - I'm reading a book on the Khazars although this is not the class I planned. This may wind up being a second class and I'll still do the one I planned though.

Post 100 situations prompts to AO3 - Well I had some difficulty figuring out how to do it on AO3 so I'm putting it on ff.net.

30 entries to monthly diary day - yep posted this month.

30 new kiva loans - did that on the 15th, I made a loan to Zamiyya Natalia for education expenses in the Dominican Republic.

Read 3 books on the Kyivan Rus - there may not be 3 English language books on the Kyivan Rus. I'm searching. Though I'm currently reading a book on the Khazars which mentions them, and I'm counting.

Listen to 90 podcasts - I listened to one about whether we've historically had a right to privacy in this country. Spoiler alert: that's a no.

Read the entire bible - I've started 1 Kings

time in its flight

Aug. 16th, 2017 09:57 pm
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sigh. I'm going to have to reel this story in. I moved too fast.
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don't have enough energy left to write a poem today, sadly. i've been enjoying putting down recurrent thoughts of the day in poetry form.

...maybe i'll take five minutes and put down two lines, idk yet, i'm v sleepy.


i took five minutes and wrote the poetry

my plan for the next howeverlong is starting to sort itself out in my mind.
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Reading Wednesday

Aug. 16th, 2017 11:05 am
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What I Just Finished Reading
The Ariadne Objective: The Underground War to Rescue Crete from the Nazis by Wes Davis
I'll admit that I started reading this as Guns of Navarone background, but even given that I found it pretty shallow. Basically it recapped almost entirely from the reports and journals of the British officers, with the odd German thrown in, didn't consider the Greek perspective in more than the briefest passing mention. I read the first two thirds and then sent it back to the library because I just didn't care.

Coed Demon Sluts: Beth (Coed Demon Sluts #1) by Jennifer Stevenson
I saw the author talking about this on Scalzi's blog, and decided to give it a whirl. Pretty much read it straight through on the plane, and enjoyed it, I guess. On the whole, there was way too much talk, and not enough action (or "action"). I didn't really connect with the characters because a lot of the time they sounded like talking points, not people. The actual plot, when it occurred, was engaging enough. Not sure I'll bother with the rest of the series.

(Though I did have the great pleasure of the preppy young man sitting next to me on the flight asking me what I was reading.)


Hold Me (Cyclone #2) by Courtney Milan
Enjoyed this one even more than the first one. I totally got the issues both MCs had, and why they set each other's teeth on edge, but at the same time their alternate relationship was totally believable and in keeping with that. They had great chemistry and I loved how their genuine issues were resolved by working things out and patience, not but Surprise Drama.


The Edge of Worlds (The Books of the Raksura #4) by Martha Wells
It's always good to get back to the three worlds, and I really enjoyed seeing how all the characters had grown over the years, plus all the new cultures and places they encountered on their adventure. The book also brought something I'd wanted from the start, the glimmer of hope for at least some of the Fell, in an exploration of their culture as well. Heck of a cliff hanger though.

The Harbors of the Sun (The Books of the Raksura #5) by Martha Wells
I'm sad to see the end of this series, but what a great send off. Everyone got something to do, we met all kinds of old friends again, and Pearl and Malachite got to hang out (the Pearl-Malachite show was easily worth the price of admission).

The last act was Very Dramatic (well a lot of the book was), but really how much had changed since the first trilogy, and I love how much of a family everyone now has, and how many forms that takes.

(Loved this series so much, the sting of loosing it is lessened by Murderbot being so good, and by the snippits that show up on Wells' Patreon.)


Days Without End by Sebastian Barry, narrated by Aidan Kelly
** spoiler alert ** I have a lot of mixed feelings about this book. It is a book about a gay man who is somewhat genderqueer who spends the entire book with the love of his life and is still with him at the end (they are in fact married with a family by about two thirds through). It was gorgeous. The writing was stunning. The content was often brutal.

Not in a Tragic Gay way, but in a wow the MCs were in the US army during the genocide of the Native Americans, and in the Union army during the civil war, and then we did another round of genocide in Wyoming. And so... yeah.

But on the other hand, it painted nothing as glorious, and I really appreciated a "Wild West" story that actually showed what was going on, and boy howdy did it not romanticise anything. And while it never excuses any of the characters, it does lay out how a lot of that happened, how even good men got sucked into being monsters.

So, gay HEA, beautifully written, uncountable slaughter, would rec the audiobook, as the reader has a pleasing Irish accent.

(This was strongly recced to me by Dad who goes in for depressing things with pretty writing. He also may have been trying to bond over queer content, which is nice. Your mileage will vary widely on how much you can handle the MCs being complicit in crimes against humanity, even if they were only foot soldiers, and in the army as victims of imperialism themselves.)


Notes of a Native Son by James Baldwin, narrated by Ron Butler
I don't have a lot of the historical context for the first half, but the writing is so perfect, and the ideas are clear and sharp, and it's pure pleasure to read. (It's somewhat depressing how little has changed.)


Keeping Her Pride (Ladies of the Pack #1) by Lauren Esker
One of my favourites by Esker (still doesn't top Guard Wolf, but probably edges out Dragon's Luck)! I really liked Debi and her slow road to understanding and redemption. I love how her vision of herself changed, and part of that was just a matter of realising that yes, she could put sugar in her coffee. The business plot took something of a back seat until the end, but it's a fast read, and I mostly loved watching Debi grow.

Fletcher wasn't my favourite hero, but he was solid and his issues made sense. His complicated relationship with his ex wife and their daughter made sense. I liked that the kid was there to be trouble as well as cute, as four year olds tend to be. She was pretty cute though.

Nice guest spots by various agents from the other books, but this was entirely readable as a stand alone. I haven't read Handcuffed to a Bear, where Debi first showed up, and followed it just fine.

(I got a free copy of this book in exchange for an honest review, which is horridly late. Sorry, Lauren!)


What I'm Reading Now
I've got the first Sharing Knife book going on audio, which I'm enjoying in a peaceable idfic sort of way. I can see why some people want to set it on fire. I quite like it.

I'm also drifting through Sister Emily's Lightship and Other Stories, a collection of mostly fairytale riffs by Jean Yolen, which is very good.


What I'm Reading Next
The Stone Sky is out. Once I've braced myself, I'll start that.
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Title: Proving Loyalty
Fandom: Stargate SG-1
Author: [personal profile] badly_knitted
Characters: Teal’c, Jack O’Neill, General Hammond, SG-1.
Rating: G
Spoilers: Early season 1
Summary: He may only be a temporary member of SG-1, but Teal’c is confident that it will soon become permanent.
Word Count: 282
Written For: [personal profile] mirrored_illusions’s prompt ‘SG1, Teal'c, trial period, at [community profile] fic_promptly.
Disclaimer: I don't own Stargate: SG-1, or the characters. They belong to their creators.



Proving Loyalty... )

FAKE Double Drabble: Unwelcome Change

Aug. 16th, 2017 05:49 pm
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Title: Unwelcome Change
Fandom: FAKE
Author: [personal profile] badly_knitted
Characters: Dee, Ryo.
Rating: G
Challenge: Amnesty 5 using # 31: A Change In The Weather at [community profile] drabble_zone.
Spoilers/Setting: After the manga.
Summary: Dee is having a change of heart.
Disclaimer: I don’t own FAKE, or the characters. They belong to the wonderful Sanami Matoh.
A/N: This one’s a double drabble.



Unwelcome Change... )

Drabble: News Hound

Aug. 16th, 2017 05:40 pm
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Title: News Hound
Author: [personal profile] badly_knitted
Characters: Ianto, Jack.
Rating: G
Written For: Challenge 461: Report/Reporter at [community profile] tw100.
Spoilers: Nada.
Summary: Torchwood’s job just got a bit harder.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Torchwood, or the characters.




News Hound... )

Dear Creator (Femslash Exchange 2017)

Aug. 16th, 2017 03:42 pm
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Hello, I'm [archiveofourown.org profile] kadma and it takes but one gander at my profile to see I love femslash! Below, you'll find a list of my general likes and do not wants, followed by a short paragraph per fandom of prompts / suggestions, all of which are optional.

General Likes:
  • PWP / smut
  • feelings / introspection
  • missing scenes / codas
  • in-character dialog
Do-Not-Wants:
  • illegal drugs (inc. marijuana)
  • animal abuse / death
  • alpha / beta / omega and bestiality
  • bodily fluids (kink and non-kink)
  • pregnancy & kid-fic
  • first person POV
  • out of character characters
  • crossovers / aus

REQUESTS

Faking It (2014)

  • Lauren Cooper / Zita Cruz
  • Karma Ashcroft / Zita Cruz
  • Amy Raudenfeld / Reagan
I am smitten by Zita Cruz. Lauren and Zita seem so compatible to me: anything goes with these two. Banter. First kiss. Lingerie shopping. Lauren developing feelings for Zita post-canon, despite dating Liam Booker. Zita attending a class taught by Lauren on how to create a successful brand. It's all good. I also loved the fact Zita kissed Karma to see what the fuss was about, so if Zita catches Feelings for Karma, I see lots of pining and angst waiting to happen.

WWE (World Wrestling Entertainment)

  • Sasha Banks / Bayley
  • Alicia Fox / Eva Marie
  • Bayley / Carmella
  • Ember Moon / Asuka
  • Nikki Cross / Asuka
  • Ruby Riot / Nikki Cross
Bayley and Sasha have been adorably affectionate recently and they’re cute together. Alicia and Eva is a ship I discovered by writing them and their “opposites balance each other out” vibe is what I love the most. I'd love to see how a long-term arrangement plays out between them: who invites whom over to their place first, who cooks something the other is allergic to and has to spend the night at the hospital with them, who likes red wine and who likes white? Ember Moon and Asuka have a spark, which I’d love to see explored. Does Asuka really look down on Ember or is it a facade to hide her true feelings? Or, you know, smut and good sex for all these ladies is great too.

Pretty Little Liars

  • Spencer Hastings / Aria Montgomery
  • Hanna Marin / Mona Vanderwaal
For these ships, I love the idea of Spencer coming to terms with her feelings for Aria, despite Aria being in a controversial relationship with Ezra. Would she act on her feelings, or stifle those feelings by lying to herself? Hanna and Mona being adorable girlfriends in the wake of Alison’s disappearance is a scenario I love. Anything that shows the intimacy of their relationship from either party’s eyes would be wonderful. Also, angst awaits the reveal of Mona as the original A and her reasons for targeting all the Liars!

H2O: Just Add Water

  • Cleo Sertori / Rikki Chadwick
  • Bella Hartley / Cleo Sertori
  • Emma Gilbert / Cleo Sertori
  • Rikki Chadwick / Bella Hartley
  • Rikki Chadwick / Emma Gilbert
Post-series introspection and relationship dynamics between these characters are some of my favorite things. Rikki developing feelings for Cleo after Emma leaves, as an unhealthy coping mechanism. Bella looking up to Rikki as a successful woman (and mermaid!) and attempting to ask her out, only to be thwarted by Shenanigans. Emma and Cleo’s years together as close friends: first hand-hold, first sleepover, first kiss.

Fresh Off The Boat

  • Honey / Jessica Huang
Honey and Jessica have such a wonderful friendship in the show, so I’d love to see the scales tip towards romance. Some ideas: Honey developing a crush on Jessica but convincing herself it’s only a very, very, very deep friendship, Jessica drunkenly confessing to Honey how pretty she is, and how her lips look so soft. Honey and Jessica holding hands or singing duets in an alternate universe where there are no families, no men or boys holding them back. Jessica giving Honey a massage and marvelling at how lovely her skin is. Honey proving to Jessica that her favourite hangout is a gay bar by kissing her, to the cheers of the regulars.

Hopefully, these prompts gave you an idea of what sort of stuff I like. Happy femslashing! <3

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Aug. 16th, 2017 07:18 am
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I don't know why I'm so hard on myself, I really don't. Around 11:30 a.m. yesterday I started feeling panic because I hadn't yet started two important projects I had planned to tackle that morning. But then I made myself think back to what I had already accomplished since waking, and felt better:

* Fixed the shower head
* Showered
* Found some things Shiremom was looking for
* Went through two cartons and found places for everything
* Walked Pippin 3 times (once in the rain)
* Went through the mail
* Tried in vain to figure out what the switch in the hallway is attached to
* Tried in vain, for a third time, to get someone at the Social Security Admin. to answer the phone
* Ate breakfast and lunch
* Went online and printed out new voter registration forms
* Enjoyed reading recent posts on Dreamwidth and LJ
* Responded to sweet comments
* Found the light bulbs and set up a few lamps
* Moved my bed to a new position
* Sent two texts and one email

It's been less than a week since the moving van arrived, and Shiremom and I have a lot already. I'm proud of us. :)
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Demands and Decisions
by Dialecticdreamer/Sarah Williams
part 1 of 6
word count (story only): 1116


:: Part of the Polychrome Heroics universe, the Mercedes story set, and the Road Trip arc, this is where Joshua's brain finally goes 'tilt,' but while there is tension, several good things develop as a result. ::


:: This story is sponsored by Callibr8, and she knows why! ::





Joshua had walked G to his appointment, then loped back toward the nursery, with one eye on the digital display on his watch as he calculated whether any parents would be interested in a story during breakfast, rather than afterward. It would work as a small distraction, maybe. Hopefully.

He couldn't sit idly in the dining area, or even in their cabin, but he didn't want to let his worry frighten the newest members of the family… A pang tore through him at Isobel's impending, nebulously timed departure, but he hoped just as fervently that her mother could recover their bond. That she wasn't lost in grief or addiction or raging PDSD, which would damage Isobel's psyche even more.
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Aug. 15th, 2017 11:35 pm
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I keep finding books to add to my master list of things-to-read, and discovering that said books are the second, sometimes third, book that an author has written - and I have their first one from a few years ago on my list.

Things stay on my list for a LONG TIME, yes. XD

In cat news, Cinders had a bad night last night. She likes to burrow under the throw on top of my blankets and pretend that she's a ... I dunno, a sandworm or something. So she did that, and she was playing "got your hand" with me, when Jesse snuck up and whapped her on the head.

Then after she recovered from that, Sam kicked her as he was stretching. And then Gidget jumped off the top of my bookcase and landed on her, full-weight. Poor girl scrambled out of the blankets, all wide-eyed and trembling. It took ages to calm her down!
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Title: Mona Lisas and Mad Hatters
Fandom: Person of Interest
Rating: Teen
Words: 52k
Characters/Pairings: Root/Sameen Shaw, Harold Finch/John Reese, Harold Finch/Grace Hendricks, John Reese/Mark Snow, Michael Cole, Robert Hersh, Joss Carter, Kara Stanton, The Machine, Bear
Warnings/Content: Sentinel/Guide AU, mind-bonding, show level violence, show level torture, emotional hurt/comfort, canon character death (Michael Cole). Some Mark/John dubcon in chapters 4 and 5. Follows some events from Ep 1.10 Number Crunch, Ep 1.23 Firewall and 2.16 Relevance.
Notes: Written for [community profile] wipbigbang 2017.

Thank you to my amazing betas: [personal profile] lilacsigil and [personal profile] musyc. You guys were awesome and got me from "I want to write POI Sentinel/Guide fic with soft face touching" to actually getting it posted.

Title is from the Elton John song. ("Subway's no way for a good man to go down.")

Summary: In 2001, Harold advised on a project called Cascade, not knowing he was a Guide himself. Years later, he and John, a Sentinel on the run from Cascade, must help Shaw, who has just lost her own Guide when the Project turned on her. Complicating matters is Root, searching for Harold's Machine and interfering with their rescue of Shaw.

Also at the Archive

Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Epilogue

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Aug. 15th, 2017 02:13 pm
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Been having health problems since the start of last month. Still having health problems. This mutiny of my body can feel free to resolve itself any day now.

FAKE Ficlet: Visiting

Aug. 15th, 2017 07:04 pm
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Title: Visiting
Fandom: FAKE
Author: [personal profile] badly_knitted
Characters: Bikky, Ryo.
Rating: G
Setting: Somewhere between Vols. 1 and 2.
Summary: Six months after his dad’s death, Bikky finally goes to visit the grave.
Word Count: 571
Written For: My own prompt ‘FAKE, Bikky, Visiting his father's grave,’ at [community profile] fic_promptly.
Disclaimer: I don’t own FAKE, or the characters. They belong to the wonderful Sanami Matoh.




Visiting... )

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